stop the game

I am here, why play, say what you want to say
you tell me every thing in hidden ways
the chances of me under standing is no way
I prefer if I was told in the most direct, blunt way
I know I also have been playing this game and
there is now a chance to end this game
but at the same time, the ball is not with me
this game takes two to play, so play no more
for I quit this game and want to say after you say
I am too busy with other hard game
between my angles and demons, a never ending game
and this game I play whit you only fuels their game
so put all pride away and say those words
that are in your head, don't make me guess
its game over as of today, now play no more

A word

One word changes the world
one word hurts so much
one word makes feelings change
one word hurts my Brian
more than that one word, the meaning of
what you said does so much so that
one word feels like knife in the chest
one word put a tear in the corner of my eye
one word makes me drop to my knees
one word kills me off
asking of a explanation for the one word
hurts more and can't stand no more
one word kills off feeling
one word destroys good
one word restores hidden evil
one word over thinking dies again

Lost & confused

For I am lost, confused, and scared
This felling I have deep within my soul
I have no control, it controls me
It came from god as a gift, but it’s a curse
Two, not one, the past and the present
I don’t want ether one
I want control but like being controlled
Walk away this fine day and find
Something new something, I don’t, for
I see many but I cant do it, to the fact
I am loyal to the true one
I feel like I am cheating
Away feeling down just knowing
That it is two that I care about
Not one, even I don’t know who it is
Which one and how I will know
For now I will stay lost and confused

Feelings lost

Sitting back looking what has recently been
The world spins and all begins again
Without a sense of the past nothing to hold me back
I feel free again but still wounded where it went
Away from here that’s all I know its gone
And I don’t want it return back to me
Never more for I fear the feeling because what I am
I become a slave to the feeling, cant get way
I know it shall, shall return but when
Just relax for know for ever again

When I know it hit again

It started again what I fear the most
The locked jaw, can not speak
And when I do, even I don’t understand
No word makes sense to even me
I prefer not to stand, want to run
Away from where I feel the best
Do to fear of something ruining it
The chill down my pine, the shock
I want to run and hide far away
Nerves shot can not stand
Run and run but in the end I
Must stand and face my fear

No more games

You asked me to disappear and now
I see you always looking towards me
I have a heart stop playing with it
For I can't stand another time unless
You decide to try this time for real
For I know I am over you to a point that
I can think of other then you
I don’t dream of you any more
And I may have some one new
But you know I don’t like this game
Game of love is a painful one
And I have been hurt to many times
To live through another one
Be strait and tell me what you want
From a poor soul like me

Hardest thing to say

Looking it to the eyes
A deep pain deep in side
Can't breath, the pain
Can you see where it went to this place?
Where did it all go wrong?
What move did I make and
If I did tell me because
I am only a man
I can not read your mind
Forgive me I do ask of you
And what I know of you
You shall forgive me
Because the large heart you have

Words that make a difference

If fear of my action being misleading
Saying something that was not meant
I meant nothing friends is a word
That I used, words are words nothing more
It can't describe what I think
A single word means so much, like,
A friend which I have fun with
Or some thing I have feelings for
But with different levels of it
From high to low, so different
But the same take it the way
You think want, I mean nothing wrong

Puzzle

Kind, quiet and so sweet
Hidden, counseled, and so unknown
I believe, I see, I feel
Every thing with you
You like a mystery to me
Gold looks like rust when
Compared to your beauty
Still trying to find you
So deep, so lost with in
My heart I reach out
You push a way but
When I lest expect
You show me what makes
Me like you, hints
From with in your soul
I fear to tell you my
Like is turning to something
Then what meant by me
I think I am already there
With you right next to me

In the dark

Don’t leave me
A lone in the dark
Night is scary without you
Always stay near me
But if you step away
A fear for the end of me that’s
Soon to come a raises with in me
Except when you return next to me
Love is what keeps death way from me

Empty space

From now until the day I die
We want the thing we have lost
The feeling emptiness of the soul
The constant wanting of replace
Subconsciously we are dieing for
The thing we lost just continuing
Life finding it in my face
All just fake, the truth is hidden
Away far away so we live in a lie
Realizing it makes me want to cry
Crying is realizing of self denial
Of the truth that is hidden with in.

Telling the truth of the game

Really, what we want to say we don’t say
Every one is the same, all the words
Hidden, we hide away in fear of the truth
And we believe its for the best
More we think more we play
Lots of games and nothing strait
Other then the truth we just love to play
Varying day to day its fun games
Every thing we say is just play

Hidden words of the eyes

Just look in my eyes and tell me why
Just say what you want to say to me
I can see you, that look in your eyes
You have something to say to me please
Say it to me, I may be the dumbest
Of all, I cant tell what your trying
To say to me just say it to me
Though time it just becomes bulk
I fear to tell you and you fear to tell
We will go crazy just looking at each other
And not say what we need to say

I, it's not self centered

I look through my eyes and look at you
I wonder ho I never believed that I did
I did not see you and what your worth
I see a diamond so rear that I fear that
I will never find another like you
I thought in the past, another was the last but now
I forgot the other and you are there
I want to say something that I never dare say
I can not hurt myself so
I will live in self denial
I will wait until you want me to and then
I will see its time for me
I shall wait, but can it wait
I am confused I can't decide
I will one day make up my mind
I do know it's not today and for that
I say good bye

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