With in the night

I foresee what is meant to be
I have betrayed the trust
and have died
this is what I fear
that all I have seen it meant to be
no dreams come to me
with out truth with in them
for that I fear
what has happened in the dream
is really meant to be
for now I am sorry and
say good bye
I will leave for now
but you shall know I will
fight my way back
to this life and be
what is meant for me
for that is also what I foresee

This returned 20/05/06

I have felt this once before but with a vary different feel
I remember the feel was much sharper and deep
Is it because I am older or wiser
This is not right for this time I all I have done is tell the truth
I have not done wrong on my behalf you ask
I did not hid but I feel you have and I ask why
All you wanted was the truth and I gave it to you
But will have the courage to tell me
What you feel and what shall happen to this
For I have been bothered by the out come
I did not want this to happen this way for I told you so
Please confront me don’t leave me in the dark
Its cold out here in the dark for I fear that I have been
Rubbed of some thing that I did not mean wrong
The truth was meant to come out some time
But if I knew it would come out this way
I would have lied until this vary day
For I have lost a friend the one I thought I can really trust

Losing 17/05/06

The feeling of you leaving
My side is like losing apart
Apart that is deep with in me
You may not see this for I
Don’t show what I hide within
Past time has repeated again
Trust is lost for something
Vary sickening and why
Is this thing I have a week
Side called me and my friends
And all the other feelings within

where i have become 25/04/06

Its so calm, so quite, and white
no a sound in these grounds
a place I recently reached
I have been fighting for long
times of darkness and gray
where the noise was much more
then any where see before
a whisper came along and
light shined in through
the black background
what a sight for sour eyes
and it takes me in to this
place that I am
its so calm, so quite, and white
no a sound in these grounds

Try to enjoy 15/04/06

All was happy and fun
then some thing was said
and the world went black
hate fills my mind
why that was said was
unknown to me, but it hurt
I rather not hear it
I try to cool down
be happy and enjoy
so it was done but still
the words caused pain
that carved in my mind
keep coming back to me
sorry oh friend for I
have distorted this day
of joy and fun but
I shall try to make it up