Tuesday, April 11, 2006

The question 11/04/06

Can I ask you a simple thing why do you
Do what you do to me
Dou you like to see my pain
That you put in me
Do you enjoy the way you treat me
Is it fun to see me in this mood?
Do you like to just take my soul?
But no you don’t you like me
The way I am, down and feel like me
The way I am, down and feeling like shit
I just ask you why
And then you laugh at me
And don’t answer me
Just tell me why you made me like this
Is it just for entertainment?
I am tired of living this life
Just take my life forgive me
For I have sinned in your name
And you just punish me
Let me go please

Self hate and pain 11/04/06

All I want to do today is to die today
I want to cry my eyes out
Until I tear blood instead of tears
And cut my wrist and wipeout my hate
I want to hurt you, see tears from you
Bleed my hate out through you
But I can't do that I can't do anything
I can't even stand no more I just
Want to do something I don’t like to do
I'll hurt myself before I can do any thing
I can't even look at you with out the rage
Its all because of you, if I think of you
I get mad at you, but the truth is
I'm mad at my own self because of
What I did to you, and what I did
To myself through you, pain
Pain that I can't get though
Just to do way with my pain through you

It is a small world 03/04/06

Life is one small circle
Turn and turn and return again
Everything from love to all of life
Once again a feeling that I hate
To the point that sudden death enters
My mind, complete failer I can not stand
Just want to feel that I am
Doing something good, something that makes me right
No more friends that take my time for fun
No more games of love that redirect my mind
No more playing wasting time
Do only what is needed to be done