Finding out the pain

There is one thing deep with in me
that even scares me and I see it
someone I hate I have got it from
I cant believe that I have become
like this after all this time trying to run
away from being anything like him
but in the end I was told this sad story
I became what I disliked and never wanted
to become this is the end of what I am
I shall change in every way so that I stay
far from this evil with in me